Monday, October 20, 2014

Random #1

 I am so sick of being me. Every girl at my school is either Pretty, Skinny or had Confidence. I have Anxiety, I'm not pretty and i'm fat, AND FOR SURE! I DO NOT HAVE CONFIDENCE!

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 So hey guys, On halloween, I have to go to this youth convention for my church, and so there is going to be food and pizza and just a bunch of food I don't want! What should I do?

How many calories are in a 12 fl oz. lemon detox drink?

What should I do at youth convention when there are three meals for three days straight? Should I just eat normal then go back again to my diet? Idk what to do! I was gonna quit out of it but someone from my church paid for me now I have to go.... So what should I do. 

~Bye My Beautiful Butterflies!

I'm such a fat ass

I binged big time! I ate 4 1/2 pieces of pizza and had two cans of pop! I was doing so well! I hate myself so much. I hope I gain nothing! Omg if I did I'd cry and just be so mad.

Cold

My fingertips are cold, like cold as ice! Idk if its a good thing to be proud of but I am, I just know that I'm cold Cuz im losing weight, I guess. I'm crying now, Cuz of the movie UP. The part were his wife dies, it just, ugh! It just kills me! It is so sad!

10/20/14

Ok it is super early, well for me at least. I lost a pound! I'm sitting in complete darkness. I was putting on a belt today and I noticed that it was tighter and two notches away from my original belt notch. I did my little happy dance! I hope today I don't be like me and binge. That would be terrible. I hate how people look at me when I get my food then throw it away before sitting down to my table. I just hate how people stare all in general. Bye I have to go to school... Eh

Sunday, October 19, 2014

Diets






About Me!

My name is lilla!
My last name is bacon, I love it but hate. I am 13. I started being pro Ana at 12. I also started cutting at 12 too. But I don't really cut any more. My mom died, and dad left when I was a baby. I lived with my grandma ever since I was five. My mom died when I was ten-ish. My grandpa raped me and left my grandma for a girl who he met just in two days. He also got married to her. I'm glad he left tho...
I was super skinny when I was younger, then I started to gain weight. I got bullied a lot because of my weight. So one day I came home crying and looked up how to loose weight really fast. Then found ana.

My Contact Info

my kik is lilla.bacon
My Snapchat is lilla-bacon
My email is the.name.is.lilla@gmail.com
I don't have a phone yet so... Sorry

Love you my beautiful Butterflies!

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10/19/2014

Hey guys!

I started the ABC Diet, and so far so good. I lost 3 pounds over one day! I was 136.5 now I'm 133.5! I was so happy! Today I only had 190 cals out of 500. There is this pro ana/mia chat room, and it is just awesome! There are a bunch of people going through what you going through, and they help A LOT! On that site I am @mybestfriend3579. And on twitter i'm @mybestfriend357 follow me and i'll follow you!  

YOU CAN DO THIS! JUST BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!

5 ana tips

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!   (even tho its not Halloween yet.)


 Here are some tips for ana...
(I either thought of these or saw it somewhere)

1. Wear a red bracelet. Every time you look at it, it helps you remind you that your on a diet. If you don't like bracelets, then wear a red shirt on Monday.

2. Get a stack of magazines that weigh as much as you, then every time you loose weight take the amount of weight you lost off of the stack and it helps seeing the stack get smaller.

3. Drink A LOT OF WATER! Water is your best friend other than ana.

4. If you are about to binge, look in the mirror, look at all the things you want to change. Drink a glass of water and do 100 jumping jacks and 20 crunches. Are you still hungry? Do it again if you are.

5. Hit the lower part of your stomach when it grumbles, not the upper part!

I know it might seem very little, I just don't want to write much and I was getting distracted by SpongeBob SquarePants